sorry to you; "come back..come back to me!"

Thanks Dave for very astute comments.:.)

I feel a little bit like apologising to anyone reading the blog. Yes the blog was never promised to be upbeat but instead a tracing of the process of committing to Parkour and working hard at it. The blog was going to be both a document of that process and a place to reflect. But however necessary it was as part of the process of learning i feel sorry for all the time spent......

moaning!

I think if you love Parkour it can be a potentially complex relationship if you let it be. And yes i do agree that as Dave suggested if the love for it wanes the fears take a stronger grip and the physical resitance to pain, to challenge, to healing grows. But also what I love is also moving in every sense and Parkour comes with a potentially much higher price to pay than dance practise does and so i recognise now that although no one wants, or indeed sets out to tear a ligament or break a bone not only we it stop me doing Parkour but it would stop me dancing which is an incredibly rewarding healing exciting activity that i get to do everyday. The thought of gambling with it, or taking lightly the gift that it is being able to properly rip up space and time through you blood and bones is why i first became hesitant as well.

But i feel im back. Watching the Interview with Stephane Documentary reminded me of my first feelings encountering training. That Parkour was something exceptional, exceptionally beautiful yet exceptionally everyday, something exceptionally hard but yet also simple. Watching that night in Vauxhall its great to see it from the outside, you dont remember the pain only that there was pain! each day not doing it is like forgetting to live that day.

I feel that if i questioned should i do Parkour i didn't commit to it...there should be no question. I see now that i am unlikely at least for now to train in the way the french traceurs seemed to and trying to replicate what i thought that meant didn't really always benefit me. But the principles remain the same strong body strong spirit, an obligation to play, generosity and community, following your own journey.