Christmas Day

Christmas Day.....!
u tubed various pk communities, blane, interviews with stephane, girl parkour etc..
would go out and train but got flu like nastiness and have barely been out of bed most of the day....

many parkour thoughts to be had....as 200 and fine approaches this is where i stand on the parkour, the training, the blog....

my playing will continue in 2009 after feeling for a while that it might not...i want to think of it as playing not training, to reassert the lightness, the curiosity, the discovery.

why train?...
the focus and attention that pk necessitates quiets my chattering brain, fills up the spaces with touch that would otherwise be filled with cyclical dialogue. It's meditative and in that way very healthy, just as long as i keep sentences that contain should in out of my head, i should be able to do that, i should do that again, i should try harder, i should have this down by now. Who for?..most of the time if im fufilled and focused the voice inside my hand is urging again, again, the motivation is inherent, if the voice isn't there why carry on? certainly not to get a certificate from the school of parkour saying i passed, achievement seems meaningless if you hated the process that got you there.

what do i hope to achieve?..
whilst i would like to be more confident and consistent with certain recognisable 'moves' the thing i strive for most is learning to connect to that state of being where movement is fulfilling. I really really enjoy doing simple stuff over and over again, small vaults, small wall runs, monkey walking along walls, and from that comes that moment that i love when you make an adaptation and its suprises you (e.g both feet track up directly underneath you rahter than arching round the side...never did that before?!; why now?..because i was ready). There was a time where a simple along a wall was a huge deal and so there is a risk im coasting on past endeavours but these movements are the nuts and bolts and refining anf refining them is never time wasted. In fact i dont want to challenge myself with fear and risk together at all, maybe them both seperately but not together for the moment. Challenging my thought processes, energy levels and creativity are also good focuses for me right now.

how to train?
mostly on my own i reckon...which is a shame in a way as i love seeing everyone at classes...im not the best of students right now. Its a strange thing as in other movement activites i practise i love feedback, i can do something with it, in fact i always do something with it; ' next time tuck in your chin', 'look up', 'more energy', 'less energy', etc and i can respond. With Parkour however my body is doing its own thing, i can listen, and i can notice, and recognise variations but im unable to make an instant change; 'get your foot up = 'no! ill bang my knee!'and 'land with your left!' elicits the response 'its a miracle i landed at all!'. Its very limiting and im sure it will change but for now i have to accept that it aint happening for me in certain environments. I also have a few training buddies now and it will be good to have them for company if possible.

and as for the blog...its been a bit of a trial and an embarrasment at times to feel you are constantly talking about yourself and your vunerabilities. But its also been a great source of insight, a place to make decisions and a source of interesting discussions as well as support both of which i am really grateful for.
Thankyou!

merry christmas...xx