Shadow session.

Had a hard class tonight. The actual movement wasn't particularly hard compared to other things I have done in the past but my attitude sucked. Everything felt like a struggle or a problem rather than an rewarding challenge and I felt really over anxious, off centre and discombobulated. It wasn't confined to Parkour as class (contemporary) in the morning was deeply weird, (couldn't initate clearly, couldn't sequence, couldn't let go of weight and couldn't get the hell out of my kinesphere excuse the waffly dance lingo). In fact I don't even want to write about it or think about either class. bleugh, bleurrgh, bluuu.

However Outdoor class deserves a few sentences in case there is something to be learnt so in future I need to;
1/focus much more on what I can do and focus on doing it well (quietly, quickly, fluidly) and not the trail of 'could of should have would of' movements that lay like ghosts behind me.
2/find something to block out the voice saying this is too far/ to hard/ to many repitions like saying 'hang on hang on'! over and over ad infinitum :.)
3/do a bit of warm up balancing stuff on my own before class if possible knowing that i'm not good going into balances straight away...although maybe this is an adaptability issue?. Actually SCRAP THAT ..thats RUBBISH!!!. It doesn't matter that I didn't manage to replicate walking the length of the rail as I had done yesterday as if it were some model behaviour. It's not the same task, the same circumstances, the same me or in some ways even the same rail. Its another chance to learn mastery of your physicality and mentality and another chance to commit and focus which I certainly did!!!.

To be fair I did the whole class in one way or another and expended a lot of energy. But that's not the same as giving everything. If your hearts not in it, for whatever reason, then you damn well get it involved otherwise its a bit of a shadow session. Sorry Gods of Parkour. I will sort my s*@t out! :.).

ITALY CHALLENGE
-climb a tree! seemed like a good one as I haven't climbed a tree since I was young and after I tore a flap of skin off my hand I remember deciding "never to do that again" meaning climb a tree. What would have been a better decision would have been "never climb a tree that badly again"!.

Off to the airport in 20mins without having even attempted sleep but i know I'm going to have an amazing time and i'm super excitable. Back blogging in a week. Hope to find some lovely messages from you folks and maybe a few challenges.